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3, 2, 1…Charge!

I’m happy with this past week! Weigh in day is tomorrow, so we’ll see if I’m happy with that 🙂 … So here’s the scoop:

grass jelly (drink form)

This week I did yoga a couple times, bought Wii Fit & exercised with it, made some meals at home, bought materials to grow an herb garden, tried a new restaurant (Vietnamese), tried a new food (grass jelly!), and saw a movie at a theatre (Star Wars in 3D)… (in case you’re new to my blog, all that’s on my resolution list to the right)… 

Today I cut my hair because it was getting too long and annoying..obviously this is a post of random sentences that barely relate to each other. 

Weight Watchers is going really well. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for SOME kind of loss tomorrow. My writing/work is going better. I’ve woken up a few times this week with LOTS of energy, which is really rare.

I’ve been drinking a ton of water, decreasing the sodium, and adding more fruit. It turns out I’m anemic so I started taking this nasty tasting prenatal vitamins because it’s the only multivitamin with iron in it. I felt markedly better within a day.

This week my goal is to stare down the spine of Wii Fit and kick its butt a little. I’d like it to warm up so I can start jogging outside again.  Pretty soon I’ll start looking for a 5k!


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89, 92, owls, stars, evil laptops, and metabolic catastrophe! :)

I can cross off #89 and add another notch to #92! This past weekend I went camping as I hosted a weekend-long workshop related to my research. For the first time ever, I slept under the stars without a tent, which is something I’ve always wanted to do! I bought a double-height air mattress, got myself nice and comfortable with plenty of blankets, and put it in an open field where I was holding the workshop. It was so lovely falling asleep to the very near sounds of owls and there was a little bit of an adrenaline rush since the area is crawling with black bears. I really, really enjoyed it! I can’t wait for the opportunity to present itself again. I know it’s a small little feat, but I think it’s really nice to put yourself in situations where you’re just a wee bit scared once in a while. It made me feel pretty alive, and I needed that.

Today I looked at my laptop after having not touched it (or my phone) since Thursday and the first thought that came to mind is that my laptop is the seed of all that is evil! Okay not really but… it’s the source of so much stress for me! It symbolizes work, meetings, responsibilities, unfinished writings and assignments, students, and tons of unfinished lists… it was actually slightly painful to open it up. When I got home last night, I put it on my bed and just stared at it for about a half hour before opening it up. Once I did, I couldn’t get my network connection to work so I took it as a sign that I needed until today to be technology-free.

I was SURE I’d lose weight this week, especially after this weekend because I worked my butt off… but sure enough, I gained two pounds! How the hell do I join weight watchers and gain 2 pounds during the first week WHILE spending the last four days of the week camping and eating healthy veggies and meats roasted over a bonfire!? Sheesh. My body hates me. Obviously my metabolism needs a major reroute.


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eensy weensy update

I’m looking forward to weigh-in tomorrow – I hope I meet my goal (see previous affirmations post), but as long as I have a loss I’ll be happy. I’ve been trying hard this week. I didn’t realize how much happens in my life that gets in the way of these goals, and it’s only January. I’m grateful for the ability to learn along the way.  This is probably the busiest I’ve ever been before, yet I’m finding plenty of time to incorporate my goals into social time with friends by choosing what we do based on the list – for example, I’ve now painted two canvasses and I’m really happy with how they turned out. I bought a “how to” oil paint book, too – I have no talent whatsoever, but I really enjoy doing it.  ALSO – I’m buying my ticket to the Dominican Republic this week (for mid-March). If anyone has any travel tips for visiting there, let me know! I started planning my trip to India but I’m really weary – I don’t feel safe going alone (I’ve never been), and I can’t find anyone who has the money to tag along. It needs to be done, though.

I’ve also been enjoying organizing my home. Over the next few weeks I’m hosting quite a few events at the house, so everything needs to be clean and organized. Confession: I love it when I have stuff at the house simply because it forces me to keep things neat. If I never had anyone over, the place would be a disaster!

I have two weeks to write a 100+ page document, so if I’m not posting every day, be assured that I’m trying my best to stay on plan. I know I’ve started off rocky, but know also that I’ve never been a ‘cold turkey’ kind of person. If I “step it up” every week just a little bit, I know I’ll be successful. I have to think hard about this coming week’s affirmations. Tomorrow I’ll let everyone know how I did for this week’s! 🙂


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New Semester, Predictions, & Olive Garden (3)

I just discovered that Olive Garden's eggplant parm has 850 cal and 35 grams of fat. Lesson learned!

The art of writing is the art of discovering what you believe.

— Gustave Flaubert

Tomorrow marks the beginning of a new semester which means new coursework, new students, new books to read, new stacks of papers to grade, and new politics. This has been a much-needed break, and I’m not sure what it says that I’m already looking forward to summer! I have quite a bit to do in the next four months, not the least of which is marking about thirty items off this list (pointing to the right).  If I could take a guess at which numbers will definitely be knocked off by May they would be (off “the rest” list) #7, 11, 12, 17, 18, 21, 26, 38, 34, 35, 37, 39, 41, 43, 45, 67, 68, 69, 70, 75, 79, and 91. I’d knock more off but so many of them are general goals for the year, and I won’t knock those off until I’ve satisfied them toward the end of the year.

The past few days have not been nearly as productive as I’ve wanted them to be, and yet each day I’ve pushed the notch just a bit higher. Last night, for example, I found that between 2-6am I was in a writing groove and completed some of my best work in months. I’m proud of that.

Today I discovered the source of many of my issues: social eating. My friends and I need to come up with better excuses to see each other. I ended up at Olive Garden for lunch today (despite Anthony Bourdain making me promise never to eat there or Macaroni Grill – long story) and had a meal that was quite bland.  So often I settle for mediocre meals for the sake of socializing. This means a couple of things: 1) I’m gorging on unnecessary calories, and 2) my wallet suffers. I spend a *ridiculous* amount of money on restaurants each month, and as one of my goals this year is to regain financial health (and I’m already on the bandwagon!), I promise to be more conscious about spending money on crappy food just for the sake of eating. By the way, this is also why I have promised myself to cook 100 meals at home this year… 

The more I think about it, the new semester is a good thing for me – it’s a good thing for this blog and for my goals. I’ll be waking up much earlier , eating smaller meals more frequently throughout the day (my work days tend to be 12-15 hours), carrying my water bottle (no, I didn’t get 8 glasses today – BUT I got much more than the past two days combined. That’s gotta count for something, right?), and walking more from building to building.

So, let’s take a look at today. I’ll be happy when my period is over and I can stop craving chocolate like it’s necessary to the air I breathe… (too much info?)…

Food Diary: 

  • Breakfast: coffee, creamer
  • Lunch: eggplant parm @ Olive Garden, salad, 1 breadstick w/ alfredo, raspberry lemonade
  • Dinner: Leftover turkey pot pie (homemade – 2 servings), water (3 cups!)
  • Snacks: chocolate cupcake, water (1 cup)


  • The closest I came to being active today was the hour I spent cleaning out and replacing the belt on my vacuum. I went to lunch with friends, sat in the library while my partner interviewed for a new job (she’s looking for something that pays better),  and did some Dollar Tree shopping for cleaning supplies. I’m doing better on the water, but need to step it up further. Tomorrow I’ll try for 8 glasses again and add in some fruit.  My office and the main areas of our house are clean and decluttered, though my bedroom, the guest bedroom, and laundry area are disheveled. I wanted to have everything spotless before tomorrow. I’ll try to do an hour each day until this weekend, then finish.


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Happy New Year!

2012: my blank slate

As promised, here is post numero uno. New Years Eve. I live in the eastern time zone, so I’m almost an hour into 2012. The year changed as I browsed home decor websites for room makeover ideas – I blinked and it was like the gun went off at the beginning of a race (only it was fireworks). I began to rush around the house with a busy mind, adding more items to my give-away pile and in an even more dramatic move, I started turning over my junk room in an attempt to create a new bedroom – for myself – away from my partner. I should give you some background….

Hi there – it’s nice to meet you. First, thank you for taking time out of the beginning of your year to read this post. I do appreciate it. Cyberspace is an odd place – and I do think of it as a tangible place. It is so easy to be anonymous, to talk to strangers, and to take chances. That’s what this site is about. This is my new cyber home, my new accountability network, my new public notebook – like an online living space where I’ll be curling up with a cup of tea and spilling my guts.

I’m almost thirty and if there’s such a thing as a middle-of-midlife crisis, that’s where I stand. My career is at a changing point (positive I hope),  my long-term relationship is done for, I’m in the midst of a spiritual emergency (more on that later), and I am on the verge of looking like a female-sumo-meets-homely-geek complete with bad hair, horrible skin, nearly one hundred extra pounds, and an anxiety problem. As I said above, I spent the first forty-five minutes of 2012 trying to carve a new space for myself in my home. I promised myself months ago that if things in my relationship did not improve by this very moment that I would leave altogether. I can’t do that yet – and I’m far too much still in love to go through with it – but I need to take a stand, to make a drastic point, to show I mean business. I’m hoping I get the point across – nothing else seems to. There’s too much at stake this year… just look at this list on the right-hand side of this page. I have over one hundred tasks to complete and only 365 days to do it in. I can’t let anything hold me back. Today, this first day of the new year, is going to be the first mile that I run (not literally – that will come later). I need to make it count.

As for the list, it’s pretty self-explanatory, right? You see the tasks. I see the tasks. I must do the tasks. I’m ready for this.  My only hope is that there are a few people out there who are as excited as I am about the new year. I’d love to find some folks out there to give some reciprocal encouragement. I sure as hell need it – I bet some of you do, too.

Here’s to 2012! Here’s to my 100+ task challenge! Here’s to 365 days! 

Ready, Set, Go!


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